5.31.2009

my apartment smells like roses

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and not because my doo doo don't stink. but because for the past 11 days, i've been blushing like a 12 yr old. squintin my eyes at the thgts of the niggas who don't matter, thinkin' you can't be serious. i cldnt be serious. letting the sun burst into my windows at 6 am, and not even hitting snooze. reliving photos and finding a new story in each smirk, dimple, crease, and heinken bottle everytime i look. basking in family. in lots of family. letting go of my virgo-tinged thgt processes and thinkin, maybe this is my path. where i'm supposed to be. what love's supposed to be like. and people grab at me. they claw because they've felt the earth shift. the priorities reorder. they smell the joy. "uh oh, she's happy now." right, j?

while your roses really smell like boo boo, mine are yellow. perched up against lilies. white ones. they sit on my coffee table and watch me wake up every day. they are patient. kind. they don't envy. nor do they boast. they're not proud. not rude. they're not self-seeking. not easily angered. they keep no record of wrongs. they protect. trust. hope. persevere. they never fail.

and while you're sitting there on the other side of happy,

im flying...

5.30.2009

need

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boogie's bedazzled ass coming to a street corner near you.

A Few of My Favorite Things

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And then I don't feel so bad

If This Isn't Love

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Then tell me what It is
[circa'07]

5.29.2009

my umi says shine your light on the world

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shine your light for the world to see.

cause people from a distance can't tell who is who

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exactly.

atl ho

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i'll wait for it. (sus' don't kill me)

but sorry, we're closed

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give that boy a shovel

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you wanna sip mo' on my livin' room flo'
play nintendo wit' cease and nino
pick up my phone say "poppa not home"
sex all night, mad head in the morn'
spin my V, smoke all my weed
tattoo on titty sayin' BIG
now check it, you wanna be my main squeeze baby, don't cha
you wanna gimme what i need baby
won't cha.

5.28.2009

Work, bitch

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Adriana Lima for Givenchy

football in a crowded pub

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27 May, 2009
8:28pm GMT

Barcelona 2 - Manchester United 0


B - "i don't like him, he keeps flopping"

[Ten minutes later he scores]

G - "he must have heard what you said about him"

B - "i just don't like all that falling down shit. the one who goes into the tackle harder stays on their feet."

G - "it's true"

B - "that's a good metaphor for life"

G - "tell me about it."

5.27.2009

There is no such thing as "reverse racism"

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...The fact remains, however, that today’s Republican party owes a lot more to Nixon than it does to Lincoln. Racism, which I would define broadly as the belief that some races are inferior to others (and therefore deserve to be subjugated), is still part of the program.

Not that any Republican you meet would ever cop to being a racist. In fact, calling a Republican a racist is a good way to get your head bashed in. Somewhere along the line, overt racism became about as socially acceptable as pederasty, which I guess is a good thing.

Except that instead of becoming not racist, conservatives have busied themselves changing the definition of racism so it doesn’t apply to them anymore. The holy grail in this effort is the ongoing attempt to brand non-white, anti-racist activists as … racists.

The essential contours of this argument are simple enough: if we’re not allowed to discriminate against you for being brown, then you can’t discriminate against us for being white.

The reason so few sensible people take it seriously is that there is no effective anti-white discrimination in America or, for that matter, the world. Being white is almost universally easier than being any other color, just as being male is almost universally easier than being female. (If you’re white, male, and still angry, the problem is you.)

Conservatives like to point to the language of Malcolm X, Louis Farrakhan, Sister Souljah, and Al Sharpton, but the ultimate target of that (outdated) rhetoric is white racism. Hating all white people because some white people are racist may technically count as a form of racial prejudice, but it barely registers when compared with the regime of institutional racism that enabled white people to buy and sell black people for hundreds of years and created a society that remains significantly unequal to this day.

Conservatives also like to object that slavery ended 144 years ago, but you don’t even have to cite the historical nearness of the Civil Rights movement to prove that objection irrelevant.

Consider this: the first known instance of slavery in America was recorded in 1619, which means that slavery existed here for 9.8 generations (using the current U.S. generation span of 25.2 years). It ended 5.7 generations ago.

For 9.8 generations, black people were systematically subjugated, their families systematically dismantled, their bodies systematically objectified.

White people, by contrast, had 9.8 generations to exploit black labor, profit from black productivity without giving anything back, accrue to themselves as many advantages as they possibly could, all under the cover of the law.

For four more generations after the 13th amendment abolished slavery, whites in much of the country defended and pressed their advantages under a new set of unfair laws, epitomized by the false logic of “separate but equal.”

If you want to be extremely generous to American equality and the goodwill of white people everywhere, the best you can argue is that whites and blacks have been on equal footing for less than two generations.

In a perfect meritocracy, maybe that would be enough to level the playing field. But we don’t live in a perfect meritocracy. Legacy matters, family matters, connections matter, and inevitably, unless the law insists otherwise, skin color matters. Maybe not to you, but to plenty of people.

So, yes, it’s preposterous to call advocates of affirmative action and all its sibling policies racist. If you think they’re illogical, or counterproductive, that’s your right. We can have an adult conversation about it.

But if you’re going to call brown people racist because they believe in protecting other brown people from white racism, I don’t have anything to say to you.

Except this: You’re the racist.


-Michael Hogan, Vanity Fair

my new boyfriend is lazy

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sleeps all day.
snores.
farts.
sneaks into my bed.
smothers me.
eats my food...



and steals my panties...
and I wouldn't have it any.other.way.


RedHotRiviera

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kylie, alice & carine at the dolce party in cannes

"I'm so sick of singing this song, y'all"

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Estelle set the sculpture garden on FIRE at last night's MoMA Party in the Garden, sending the crowd into a righteous tizzy when she closed with her ubiquitous hit "American Boy."

when maury isn't checking paternity results,

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or showing "shocking" video, he brings jack hanna on to show animals. and let me tell you, nature sure is amazing! he brought out some joeys (baby kangaroos) and said when they're born, they're the size of a worm. so i'm like no friggin way!

well, watch how it's done:

click the link and watch the video. seriously, it's better than spectacular's latest show.


dead.

are any of ya'll into girls like I am??

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let's be hoooooooonnnest.

when this hit my inbox

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...entitled "you're welcome" with kelis1.jpg attached, i expected to see the baby crowning. but i suppose i'll settle for this:

on goons with a C

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on love...

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my four year love affair pretty much ended last week. and despite the occasion, there was no pomp and circumstance, no fireworks, no standing ovations... he graduated and it... died. only thing left to look at are frustrating bbm convos, and the crumpled envelope that held a card he never received. oh and pictures from senior week that send my imagination running wild. but all this time... all the days, the nights, the arguments, the passive aggressive facebooking and the end was just so friggin uneventful, i didn't notice it was over until well... i said, you have to come back for something? and he said, nah.

then i see this photo. and wonder if love itself should be uneventful. love is when you find beauty in the pedestrian. holding hands. walking. loving. and for a relationship that was so centered on tumult, there was something very calming about its very quiet end. perhaps, peace marks the difference between love and infatuation. you don't have to prove it, it doesn't have to prove you. it doesn't need to be validated through any social networking site. you don't need to be a top friend, if you're his best friend. and all that time i sought validation, and tried to beat up girls who came too close, when he yelled and we fought... infatuation took its course.

love, doesn't require that. when i think of my greatest friendships, they are the ones that are uneventful. we fight rarely, we love deeply, we don't envy and nothing about our relationship needs approval via myspace. and finally, after all that anger, aggression, obsession- it ended like a rose petal on grass. our love ended the way true loves begin. and truest loves are maintained. as simple as holding hands. getting ready to board marine one. with your husband. the president of the united states.

5.26.2009

memorial day

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Tomorrow is Memorial Day, the day we have set aside to honor by remembering all the Americans who have died fighting for the thing we like the most about our America: the freedom we have to live as we please.

No official day to remember is adequate for something like that. It's too formal. It gets to be just another day on the calendar. No one would know from Memorial Day that Richie M., who was shot through the forehead coming onto Omaha Beach on June 6, 1944, wore different color socks on each foot because he thought it brought him good luck.

No one would remember on Memorial Day that Eddie G. had promised to marry Julie W. the day after he got home from the war, but didn’t marry Julie because he never came home from the war. Eddie was shot dead on an un-American desert island, Iwo Jima.

For too many Americans, Memorial Day has become just another day off. There's only so much time any of us can spend remembering those we loved who have died, but the men, boys really, who died in our wars deserve at least a few moments of reflection during which we consider what they did for us.

They died.

We use the phrase "gave their lives," but they didn’t give their lives. Their lives were taken from them.

There is more bravery at war than in peace, and it seems wrong that we have so often saved this virtue to use for our least noble activity - war. The goal of war is to cause death to other people.

Because I was in the Army during World War II, I have more to remember on Memorial Day than most of you. I had good friends who were killed.

Charley Wood wrote poetry in high school. He was killed when his Piper Cub was shot down while he was flying as a spotter for the artillery.

Bob O'Connor went down in flames in his B-17.

Obie Slingerland and I were best friends and co-captains of our high school football team. Obie was killed on the deck of the Saratoga when a bomb that hadn’t dropped exploded as he landed.

I won’t think of them anymore tomorrow, Memorial Day, than I think of them any other day of my life.

Remembering doesn’t do the remembered any good, of course. It's for ourselves, the living. I wish we could dedicate Memorial Day, not to the memory of those who have died at war, but to the idea of saving the lives of the young people who are going to die in the future if we don’t find some new way - some new religion maybe - that takes war out of our lives.

That would be a Memorial Day worth celebrating.

Beauty, reflected

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Stool: Schiller's Liquor Bar, NYC.
Shoe: Prada, via Toryn.

5.25.2009

What does this do to you in the club???

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I for one may tell my first child this is how they were conceived....

Which girl are you??

note: there are too many white women in this video, and i'm the one with the good credit!

5.17.2009

hey y'all

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im just at graduation. leanin and chillin.

5.15.2009

Oh, wait, one more thing

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2 of my MOST favorite babygirls, Jourdan Dunn and Liu Wen, at Karl's extravagant Chanel resort show in Venice yesterday.

Oh hell yes!

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And that's about all I'm good for these days.

5.13.2009

no place like new jersey

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i've just submitted my dissertation research proposal. four hours late and 1,300 words short. i can't be bothered.

not even going to get into it, because the sound of my own voice moaning in my head is too much to bear.

i'd honestly rather talk about nice things. that have nothing at all to do with dissertations. like, i went to spain last weekend. that was nice. the most beautiful place i have ever been, actually. not just the weather, but the warm people, language, culture, style ... food. it was like a party for my senses. took about a thousand pictures, but haven't grabbed them off of my camera yet. i can't be bothered to do that either.

i feel like this is the rightful end to my year. coming home for the first time in almost a year. and i feel the urge to commemorate it in some way:

In summation ...

sometimes things don't happen the way that you expect them to. and it is hard. it teaches you to be tough and forces you to learn things about yourself. you'll learn the same lessons repeatedly until you learn them good. so don't fight the journey. try to find some joy in it.

salvation

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home in two days ...


fo sho

you are perfect

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words can't express. happy birthday, doos! i love you too, too much.

5.11.2009

smell me?

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yes, last night was good. so fucking good. you came when you said you would, both times. and you weren't selfish nor rushed. you feel like family, like trust. you reminisced abt 8th grade, my 21st, but you didn't suggest things abt the future. your eyes looked away when my eyes asked "what if?" you asked me if i loved you, and chuckled when i squirmed out of responding. you know limits. you respect them. you give me space, and you make it so i don't have to feel sad abt giving you yours. being with you is light. never heavy.

i know a girl that wraps herself up in her man's t-shirts. she sprays his scent onto her handkerchiefs. douses her skin with his gasoline. she tries to devour him, smell him all the time. even, no no, especially when he's not there. when she inhales, the balloon of his face blows up in her mind. she exhales, and it fizzles. she wants to see him always.

i get in my bed, and wrap myself in my comforter. it smells the same way it smelled on saturday, before you were here. me and her, she and i, were never alike.

cause these aint your sheets. and this aint your blanket. these aint your titties, nor your thighs. you know limits.

so thank you. thank you kindly, for taking your scent with you.

see you next week.

5.10.2009

yo blake, you remember a little woman named tilden? a little class called "craft studies?"

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“This is you, as a cynic, believing in something”

As we workshopped his piece, Tilden offered some kind of omniscient view into what he was trying to achieve. I scattered to find a clean page on which to write her words, and then I gawked at them for about two minutes. Their ink seeped into the pages of my notebook after I closed the book, as I told myself I’d deal with them later.

It is in the multiplicity of us that I find solace. The white black girl. The mentee’d mentor. The sarcastic recycler. The skeptical tour guide. Each day we engaged in a war of whose story is crazier, more gripping, funnier, sadder, more beautiful. I write because I owed it to them to unpack my history. Because we were a team, guiding, molding, and sewing together the fabric of our writing lives. I write because something in me always wants to call her “Mama Tilden” aloud. I write because we just worked.

And also because if this sounds overly cheesy, someone will most likely point it out.

things that i need right now or i'll die

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gracias.

the history of love

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5.09.2009

it's open

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and after it all i'll sit here. with a candle lit. champagne floats in my plump stomach. three green eyes are the only things looking back at me. they each say "3:48." stove, microwave, clock. it's saturday, and i'm in my tuesday panties. purple. topless. i never did buy those window shades last june. comforter draped over my indian-styled legs. hair tied up. aloe vera sap crusting, drying, hardening on my cheeks. it rains,

and rains.

close that window. but leave this one open.

it's all perfect, but cld be better if i was outside on the fire escape, just

getting the rain.

he like the drunk uncle in my famalee.

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5.08.2009

Fresh off the Runway

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With the exception of that Mickey Mouse costume she wore Monday night, Rihanna is really giving me what I need lately, sartorially speaking - even if she is turning into Kanye, as Boogie noted. Above she absolutely SLAYS my favorite (entire!) look from the Vuitton F/W09 show, as modeled by Liu Wen, one of my new fave girls. "I die" goes without saying, methinks.

Fat shout to Stef for putting me on.

Don't blame R.Les!

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This is absolutely outrageous, totally unfounded, and 100% false.

5.07.2009

Remember this name

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RihRih wasn't the only one celebratin', babygirls!

On the left is a very special RBG Favorite and one of Derek's designers, Dylan Monroe. Recognize.

Peep all the Lam fabulosity here.

whiteheat

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Princess RihRih at the party for the newly opened Derek Lam boutique on Crosby Street.



This is scary. At a party with a LIST!

5.06.2009

O'barbara!

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O & Babs display an expert makeup-kiss at the Time100 Gala.

This is Power in Media, babygirls.

Fuck y'all haters, get a life

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but fugly can also be fun ...

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It's been a very long time since I hit up the NY mag fashion blog Go Fug Yourself. Remembering the utter hilarity last time I was there, I realized that these women might have some insightful observations from Monday night's event. As usual, they did not disappoint:

"You know how America's Next Top Model has done a lot of group photos recently? Like, where they make an overly complicated setup and then tell the model that in order to have a successful photo, she has to draw everyone's attention to her and away from all the extras? I think Hilary Swank would've failed that challenge.

I want to know if that's actual top model Coco Rocha in the gold dress, and whether it's really made of scales. I want to know more about the girl in the hot-pink-heeled shoes and white dress with bodice decorations that look like recycled candy wrappers. I even want to see the front of the purple dress on the girl standing to Hilary's left. ALL of that is more interesting to me than La Swank and her miserable orange outfit. The bodice makes her boobs look depressed, and the rest of it seems all caught up in itself and messy and as if she's so rife with static cling that she could walk up and touch a lamppost and the ensuing electric spark would light up the whole of New York for two hours. And yet... it also manages to be boring. Quite an achievement, Hilary. But maybe I sold her short -- I mean, the fact that I devoted this many sentences to her just proves she DOES somewhat stand out in the crowd, if perhaps not in the way she intended." (tagged: boring, orange)

5.05.2009

And anutha thing

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alek.wek


lakshmi.menon, [in] rachel.roy, joy.bryant


sasha.pivarova, [in] giambatista.valli


coco.rocha, [in] isaac.mizrahi


AND, OF COURSE...


Daddy's here!

kiss the game goodbye

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Costume Institute Gala at the Met - 4 May, 2009

life according to Irv ... who?

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Irv Gotti recently spoke with Angie Martinez saying "I just don't think most [celebrity relationships] are real. I don't think that it started with real love and everything.
I think the way Hov is, everyone started getting on these celebrity couples after they seen Hov and [B] which I believe is the one true, real one. I want em to make it. I like those two a lot. Hov is my brother and I'm just happy for them now. But they thing looks really real and with everyone else, it's like Hov tells you to take off your throwbacks and put on button-downs and that's what they do. That's like what's 'in' now."

5.04.2009

let them girls in for a drink

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delores, sus', and vas. at it.

what? no?

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sometimes, a thousand ain't enough.

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1. kentucky is just dangerously close to cincinnati.
2. information superhighway
3. whose purse is it anyway?

a picture is word a thousand tags

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but "this was taken on valentine's day" just wld not fit.

last night a DJ fucked me all the way up

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the lot of them!

i been sleep since 6 pm

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but this woke me up. and out of my zombie-like consciousness, elicited an egregious laugh from the walls of 542:

i planned it. really i did. sometime in september before the recession. this was it. it had to be. had.to.be. i guess. i don’t know. shit. in this economy. i can’t afford to be confused. although i wonder about the numerous ways i paid for my degree. for my plans for the future. for my life. for my love. free. i wanted it to stop raining. it goes like this. week after week, something will happen. its uneasy. truly. what did i know. they approved my economic deferral. one day (God willing) I’ll look back and smile to myself while shaking my head. remember that? i had to…. but today, for real, (long pause) how much for one rib?

'kinha still got it.

5.01.2009

He made it a hot wife, She made it a hot Mom

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"I can confirm that she filed for divorce," [Kelis'] rep said in a statement. "We request the media to respect her privacy during this very difficult time."

5/55

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Armani Superstore
5th Avenue & 55th Street
New York, NY